first post:

Hello. I've had this blog for a while but didn't really care to do much with it. It's been 22 days into the new year, so I figured I would use this thing now. I don't think anybody will really ever read these, but just in case, I'll try to share some thoughts and happenings.

Barack Obama is our new President. We'll see where this goes. I have a lot on my mind that I would like to say about the entire situation of our country and people, but I think I'll save that for when people actually care to read what I have to say...or when I have more time.

I've been feeling incredibly paranoid lately. For some reason, the thought of how fragile human life is has been in my head constantly. I've become more afraid of things. For some reason, I am bracing myself or preparing myself for some sort of tragedy. I am preparing myself for some sort of phone call that might change my life forever.

I don't know how this all started. I am always worried about my wife's safety. When she goes to work, I pray she gets there safely. I pray that my parents get to work safely. Something happened that has made me continuously remind myself that our lives can end very suddenly and we are not in control.

This kind of thinking sometimes makes me question how much I have put my trust in God. It also reminds me that I can do nothing but put my trust in God. I have to keep telling myself that. I have to remind myself not to worry about tomorrow, but to take it daily. Tomorrow will worry about itself. 

God, give me the strength to trust you and to trust the plan you have for us. Help me to remind myself that this life is short, but yours is forever.